Suffocation

​I lost myself, again
Lost myself, my friend
I won't pretend that I lost you
Never had you to begin with

I held on tightly for too long
Until I felt you bleeding in my arms
With eyes wide shut,
I bowed my head
But when I opened them up,
​you had fled

Vanished in thick air
Suffocated by stress
My thoughts continued to echo
"How the fuck did I end up in this mess?"

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